In the mountains - 2023
Ok, you are an angry
tree, not all shallow
loops, for folks to sue
you are angry, and pokey
but brittle
Look at me
Look at me
For you see
I know they way
and let me say
at the end of the day
that I am a very good liar
Technology.Affront to myPathology Bill Gates owes usAn apology Got all these witchesSolely focused on astrologyBut at least I can learnComplex aetiologyTo better understandHuman psychologyAnd why the fuck We all out here Disrespecting everyone's Theology Like we don't all fall prey To innate ecology So bad I gotta make up a word Fuckitallology The entomologyBeing my frustration To others elation About the ruination Of human kinds culmination Through the disenfranchisementAnd humiliationOf those less capableOf communicationForced sublimation An attempt to destroy Individualization Not allowing personalFlanderization In pursuance of Nirvanic Ideation Of what your world could be You listen to my words thinkingNo
Not me
I wouldn't dare hurt someone just trying to be
Except for those
I don't agree
Because them I can't see
In my own personal world
Of life and glee spree
Can you not understand
That differences can agree
Building bridges is essential
And realize none are special
Each and everyone needed
By someone connected to thee
It's a web
And if we don't care for it
It'll all be dead
Except technology
And the heads
Until time comes for them too
Probably in their beds
Journal entry - 2017
Under the gaze of Athena
I write about my love of Xena
Under the gaze of the goddess I knew
Some can love me
but they can’t love me
I've got an octopus
On my face
It's colorful
And hard to look away from
Because it's got my face
I put him here
Ain't that queer
Thought he'd maybe
Help me steer
But now I can't
Look away
For some reason
He's always got
Something to say
Pull off an arm
Another finds a way
To keep me from the harm
Of looking away
Someone said
It can help you get buff
It'll even show you
The newest stuff
I guess it can
For another man
But for me it just
Destroys my plan
To be something bigger
Greater
To be beyond a trigger
Fuck a hater
The octopus on my face
Just says
Do it later
2000 something
View of the Atlantic Ocean
Do I seem unsafe as a person just… enjoying the view
You are energy. They are energy. Nothing more.
Not necessarily nothing less.
We should recreate it.
And like, then you can. You can be a literal
model. You are the best version of yourself
We all exist on a 2d path any ways, why can’t
you just… move in that 2d path as well.
Like, if attractiveness is a linear scale… which
its not, but there are apps that can make your
face, more attractive TO YOU! So like, You can
find your 2d life of attractiveness and create a
version of you on another point in that
line
you put it in the world and get energy back
to do the things that reflect that.
Alright coffee or energy?
I
YouTube tells me
Good times are coming
As if it knows
What video it shows
It's a pipeline
So sublime
It grips me in
Anytime
The world outside me shows
The problems that it knows
Are teaching me
How it all goes
A pipeline
Inclined
To break me down
From the inside
The funny thing I say
Is one works way better
To the letter
Of making my self
Low-key stellar
I'll give you a hint
A lil stint
In the right one
Will make you say
Wow was I dumb
The other will make you forget
Until it's time to inject
All the saves up
Regret
The trail I walk
Has my grandfather’s name
A younger me would have been impressed
all the same
But in the middle
I’d have found reason
for shame
It took me a while to realize
There’s a lot to a name
History, Memory
a source of pride
to influence your stride
But he was he
And I am me
So I’ll walk
his trail
to see what I
see
Perhaps I’ll walk
away, with a new source
of glee
Click this one
